the red and blue of me

hmm..i think i've used this title before.


thank god for old friends
(i say friends cause friends usually know you better than family)
they keep me grounded
they remind me of who i am,
they remind me of past
and give hope to hold on to for tomorrow

this move is hard for me

i am just starting to really get to know people and that scares me
i thought i already know them from previous years, previous visits but i really don't
now i'm not so sure if i like them
holy moly
i'm starting to feel like a stranger
stranger at work, among friends and at home
.....and that can get pretty lonely

but i still have austin
i still have great weather, great cafe's, cheap living, great outdoor views
i still have me
i still have my car
i still have the firm :)
i still have good friends and family back at home
i still have my health
i still have hope that i'd find new friends
i just need to give myself some time to adjust

saturday night.. sitting on the couch in the living room watching sisterhood of the travelling pants. its a good movie. i balled the first time i watched it.
anyway.. wow, its been a while since i last had time to do this. i always have thoughts that i want to write but never really had alone time to relax and blog until now.

it gets cold now at nights. it feels like the end of summer in ny.

so what's new with me?? hmmm.. i have really short hair again with dark red highlights. i'm back to doing the firm and tae bo home workouts and am now taking spinning classes at the gym. oh and i also haven't been enjoying my work and workplace. people at work are boring... or maybe i'm boring.. i don't know. but i sure feel a bit out of place. i'm surrounded with sales people and we all know what that means. hmmm.. i hope that in time, i get to feel more comfortable and maybe make new friends. also, i have been really stressed out from my work overload and my new boss... blah blah blah. i hate it when i hear myself complain.. maybe its time for me to venture out of my comfort zone.. venture out of mci...

sisterhood of the pantalon just ended.. oh i also have hbo on demand :)

what else?? hmmm.. my love life is lifeless as of this moment. i don't think i have the energy to date or meet guys. (i feel sooooo tired most of the time) there are some prospects but i have no interest. not right now.

there was this guy who approached me one morning while i was fixing a cup of coffee at the cafe where i work. he looked at me, handed a piece of paper and said that i dropped it. i looked back at him and said, "i don't think so." then he left. well, that note basically said that he had seen me a couple of times at the cafe and thought i was beautiful, give him a call, etc., etc. I thought that move was pretty creative. too bad for him, i still haven't called.

i don't know. i'll probably be single forever. single mother though since i do want to have kids. maybe i'll adopt...

what else?? hmmmm... i think i'll end this for now.