the red and blue of me

its officially the end of summer here in austin, tx. its cold. the heat is on. my fingers and toes are cold. i am wearing a coat while i work.

the cold weather usually reminds me of new york, but this time it reminds me of my family in manila... specially my older sister. it's her birthday soon and i miss her. i hate that we are so far apart!!! I hate missing her birthdays, her wedding, her daughter's birthdays, and pretty much every other milestone in her life!

last weekend i gained a friend. i have known her for more than a couple of years but i never really realized how important she is to me (and my family) until last weekend. she got in trouble and was put in a very de-humanizing place. just the thought of her in that situation was very painful and scary to me. i was in tears, i was worried and was very sorry that i couldn't do anything but pray. i prayed for her safety, for courage and strength.