the red and blue of me

i'm working from home today. working from home gives me the luxury of listening to music and singing out loud. it also gives me time to clean the house and do laundry..hehehhe..i've been listening to country music. :) some martina mcbride, alan jackson and even carrie underwood. their songs are ok - they tell stories and melodies are easy to follow. i also listen to pat monahan - lead singer of Train. he just released a solo album. i really liker "her eyes."
aside from listening to new music, i also have been reading books by nicholas sparks. i'm now working on finishing "three weeks with my brother" - story about his life and family. its pretty good and i recommend it to anyone who wants to be inspired.
gotta get back to work.. i'll post more later.

yep... its been a while since my last post. lots of things have happened but i thought i'd write about what's going on in my mind lately...

i recently have noticed that i get bored talking on the phone with my bf... i think its because we just talk about events - what have we done recently and what are we going to do tomorrow, next week, etc. we don't talk about emotions or thoughts which are my favorite topics of discussion. when i try to change the topic of our discussion, it feels unnatural and feels like work. ayayayay. this has got to change since conversations are important to me.

holy guacamole! i haven't posted in ages! i've been busy with the new house, new bf, new bed, new couch, new dining table that i haven't had the time to sit down and write some of my random thoughts. hmmm... if everything around you is new, do you in a way become a new person? i know for sure that my new house and my new bf have influenced a big change in my life. i'm not a completely new person, but i have definitely changed. i now feel like my thoughts are not trapped in a small size apartment living. they have expanded to fill a 2138 sq ft footprint. interesting, eh? i still don't know how to cook, but i have learned lots of new household stuff. oh and my new bf has influenced me to be more laid back. don't get me wrong, i am still uptight.. but not as uptight as i used to.

yep. life definitely kicked me in the arse last weekend.
while it was severely painful, I knew it was just a matter of time for it to happen. I was bound to get hurt. that's what happens when you play with fire. so what happens after you get hurt? you collect and contain your thoughts, learn from the past and get back in the game... (isn't it all just a game??) it will take some time for me to heal completely but it will get there.

habbitual liars lie as they tell the truth. they lie so much that they sound like they are telling the truth. it's pretty impressive. you will probably never realize that they are lying but with enough attention to detail, you will know. there are times when you realize all of the things they have told you are lies. crazy!

i've gone out with guys who looked really good on paper -good education, great careers, stable lives - but for some reason, none of these things seemed to satisfy me. there was always something missing.

now, i am trying on something new. i'm looking past what's on paper and it is working so far. this new guy has broken all my rules and is currently rocking my world.. i'm not sure what the future has in store for this relationship, but for now i'm enjoying every single minute of it. so far so good.

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Who could imagine it
I found my happiness
In someone I barely know
And I like to take it slow

But you're so diferent, boy
You're breaking all my rules
What is it in your smile
that makes me feel the way I do

I'm trying to live my life
And I'm trying to live it right
If I desire you
It ain't because I'm trying to

Boy, everyday with you
I swear it brings me closer to
My only reservation is you,
My sweet temptation, baby

I've given it consideration
And it all adds up to you
I won't deny this heart is calling for you, baby
I've given it alot of thought
And it all ends up on you
My sweet temptation

haven't posted in a while. i'm about to go to the gym but wanted to drop a note before i head out. hmmm.. what's new with me? i am now wearing contact lenses!!! wooppeee!! my head kinda hurts right now though.. my prescription also increased. both my eyes are now -3.25... BOTH of them. isn't that weird? ok.. I really have to go.