the red and blue of me

life has been good for me lately. work has been challenging. i was able to meet my team mates and was able to go to dallas last week. my weekends have been very eventful as well. i went to an open mic karaoke bar and watched Bobby the movie (which was not so great) a couple of weekends ago, went card shopping and went bowling yesterday. my brother had 3 STRIKES in a row! everything is just peachy. :)
i also started listening to Damien Rice again.
i LOVE HIM!!!
view the video of 9 Crimes

below are words to one of his new songs:
rootless tree

what i want from you
is empty your head
they say be true,
don't stain your bed
we do what we need to be free
and it leans on me
like a rootless tree
what i want from us
is empty our minds
we fake a fuss
and fracture the times
we go blind
when we've needed to see
and this leans on me
like a rootless...
so fuck you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out of this hell when you're around

what i want from this
is learn to let go
no not of you
of all that's been told
killers reinvent and believe
and this leans on me
like a rootless...
so fuck you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out of this hell when you're around
let me out...
and fuck you, fuck you, i love you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out

argghh.. i'm getting old and i do want to get married and have kids someday......................................................................
i used to tell myself that i was going to buy a house before i get married . kind of like a sign that i have lived an independent single life successfully. i also used to tell myself that i was going to get married at 30 and have kids before i turn 35. hmmm.. i'm almost 28 and very much single.. tick. tock....

i need some sleep

not quite sure what to write. i just know i had to type .. something... anything.
well, i have been thinking of everything. i also have been watching LOTS of Sex and the City. funny since i used to hate it and now i can't get enough of it. hmm... kindof like anything else i used to love then hate then love.. love and hate - i think they're one and the same.
sometimes i love being single and sometimes i hate being single. sometimes i love my job and most of the time i hate my job. i think you have to at one point hate something to love it or the other way around. like this guy that i used to really like and now i despise but still like. ayayaya. hmmm.. should i start dating again? maybe i will. my only problem is that most guys i find interesting are not available and i just ignore the guys who find me interesting . maybe i enjoy the challenge or maybe i'm just not ready or maybe i'm thinking too much or blah blah blah.

gotta get back to watching this stupid show and get some much needed rest.

btw, i had a REALLY good workout today!!

my favorite stress reliever!!!

i am at work. yeah, its saturday and some people think that i shouldn't be working on a saturday.. but i am. i think if we accept our work as part of our lives, part of something that we create and learn from, i think we would think of work as something that we enjoy doing and wouldn't think of it as a chore or a mere source of income. we can make our work work for us.