the red and blue of me

after going through about 8 months of wedding planning, i realize that wedding planning is pretty much part of the wedding/marriage itself. its kindof like a sneak peek in to your soon-to-be married life. it will give you an insight of how you and your hubby-to-be will make decisions together as a couple and as part of each other's families (and friends). it will definitely test your patience, tolerance, creativity, budgeting skills, focus, priorities, likes and dislikes and in a very weird way, wedding planning will bring out the best and worst in you, your friends and families. its true what they say, "life is what happens when you're busy making other plans."

but if you think deeper, you will realize that planning in general will pretty much test you as a person as much as wedding planning does (maybe not to the same extent, but it does). specially if you plan with a group of people. it will test your priorities, focus, skills, personalities, patience, etc., etc. if really sink your teeth in to planning, put your mind where your hands are, and not just focus solely on the goal, you will reap the benefits of planning. i always say that i plan ahead not because i am looking forward to attaining the goal, i plan because i enjoy all the activities, steps and benefits of planning. attaining the goal is just a bonus after all the planning is done.

when people ask me if I am looking forward to the wedding/honeymoon I always pause and then eventually say yes. I pause because I am surprised at their question. I am surprised as to why people don't ask me how I am doing right now. I want to say that I am enjoying all the planning that I am doing right now and all the wedding stuff that I have done. The future right now is kindof just that - the future. My mind, I guess, is more pre-occupied with what's happening right now instead of looking forward in to the future. That probably doesn't make sense to people, but it does to me.